first week of the sem...still tryin to be focused in studies...but many other things started to kick in that made it hard to be focused...

wasnt a slack week despite bein the first week...many work to be done which i have not touched yet...the most stressin has got to be fyp...had the first offical meetin wif dr liew, our fyp supervisor...and it lasted bout one and a half hour...lotsa things to be done...

thnkin bac to the days when i was still young..bein a scientist was somehow my ambition...and here i m on the path of being one (despite the fact that it is one hard path)...i realised that it not a easy task...so much things to consider...and so what if u made all the necessary conditions and precautions, things might still go wrong...thats the life of a scientist...expect the unexpected...

well...at least comparin to my itp days, i had more time to reali go out and chill...went out to club on fridae at mos...finally some chance to work on the moves...despite the lack of space...lols...its free entry that nite...duh...

din had many to go along as the rest of my clubbin khakis are in the camp...confined...lols..had elroy, doug(and his ger) and jl....wasnt fun with them as they got busy....lols...so gotta find my own company...at least to keep me busy for the rest of the nite...and it wasnt that bad...

last nite ended on a saddenin note...MAN u only managed a draw at home vs boro...and i duno wats wif boro...they always giv mi the creeps...always managin to stop our run every now and then...all i can do now is wish that jianming's trusted newcastle can beat the blues tonite to at least keep them at 4 points away fr us....

towards the end of a season...the last few games and wif all the knockout stages of the champions league in the way, and also the wembley fa cup final...i jus hope man u players can show their spirits and characters...and emerge on top at all 3 competitions...at least to show it to the critics that we are still a force to be reckon wif despite the last few seasons' lack lustre performance...

TREBLE....!!!!

may the force be with MAN UNITED....

tml marks the start of year3 in sp...time flies...jus got home fr shoppin wif the gang...had a very very long sharin session bout each of our itp...lols....had fun but tirin...

hope we shall start off every thing on a happy note and likewise at the end of the sem...

=))

good mornin peeps...very early greetin...!

at lik hse now...jus came bac fr prata session...

so like usual we crapped while waitin for our orders...and i popped a qn to the 3 of them...

"wat is ur fav position..?"

well...for those readin...i bet u guys hav a series of ans zoomin pass ur mind rite now....and the types of ans u give determine the type of person u r...

for eg...chanz said... "hmm..i reali duno leh..."

lik said, "dun ask mi...i duno yet..." after ponderin...he said "forward."

i said..."i prefer the RM position..."

and ks..."i do not play soccer..."

so wat is ur ans?

^_^

haiz....the beautiful itp period is gona be over soon....and i've always know that dere aint free lunches in this world...smt has to be sacrifice in return for the wonderful time i had in the last 2 months...

my cyst problem is bac again!!...zZZ...its such a spoiler...totally ruined the whole itp period...tink i will hav to undergo another minor operation..and all the tormentin pain...damnEd...

sch gona start...and tt will mean a string of stuff waitin to be completed...been reali out of touch of sch life since the itp...duno if i will be able to take it...

so the theory of give and take...smt has to be taken away from u if u were given smt...i tink tts reali true...with efforts, its shown in the results...u will lose smt in ur life but gain smt unknowingly...its whether anot u will be able to notice their presence...and most of the time those who noticed, will eventually get happiness...

guess i haven notice anytin yet...shall end the post like how i started...

haiz...

>>>payback's bitch<<<

yea...i noe...its early...and i m bloggin...

cant reali slp too late nowadays due to the bodyclock...work work...>.<

chanced upon smt jus now...and i tot i had been over with that...yet it still left mi clutchin my heart...disillusioned pain...but all i can do is wish for the best...wish that all will be well for u...

and can somebody tells mi wat is the diff between infactuation and love?

mus infactuation comes first before u fall in love or infactuation is nothin but fake...?

we infactuate...will it lead to love...?i never believe in love at first sight...

is infactuation the first step before fallin in love?

lotsa questions but no answers...

haIZ...met with a tumbling rock on my course of plan todae...

ponderin on whether anot i should go forward with the plan...

feels real bad to be in a dilemma...

bLAH....

>.<

had an enrichin session with the guys at Island Creamy todae...tok bout lotsa stuff...from stuff that were talked b4 and stuff that we din touch on b4...like parenthood....

its both emotional and humorous exchangin our experiences on the way we deal with our parents and also wat kinda parents will we end up to be...it is true that parents are responsible for sculptin his or her kids' future...so the way u handle and discipline ur child does matters...

so much to ponder on...parenthood...lols...

i m driftin off to slp...ciAoz...

with a lady comes a gentleman,
with the uncouth comes the vulgar.
adapting like a chameleon,
he is never seen in his rudimental.

complex reasons tell the tale,
yet simplexity roams in the midst.
who cares bout the details,
all will be lost in the twist.

twist of fate,
as the sayin goes.
what appears on the surface,
aint the same in the host.

mind is straight,
but the loins are tight.
which will triumph in the wake,
he will have to decide.

he shall stand tall in defeat,
and bow low to victory.
a true man should bear such feat,
in search of glory.

DAMN...haven been postin...felt so guilty...>.<

been reali busy...wif work and play...

doubt i will be tokin bout stuff since the start of march...u guys can go check out my buddys' blogs...they update regularly...lols...well...its mostly bout the 2 march babies' celebration...

shall tok more bout elroy's celebration as we had hell lotsa fun at lik hse...doin crazy shit...

lols...the rain games...disturbin the neighbourhood...identifyin still objects...admirin at lightning flashes...it felt so damn goood...to be wif this bunch of frenz...they make mi never wana grow up...wahhaahs...

ok...tt sound childish...well...jus relishin the fact tt the gang never seems to get tired of each other...we meet up almost every wkend...we do crazy things on a regular basis...n i never get tired of them...guess tts wat true frens are for...u jus never get bored...

itp is reali fun and enrichin...and i got myself a godmother...and a big family of frens which i will reali cherish even after my itp...they hav taught mi alot...stuff that cant be taught in the classrm...

guess tts bout it...its been reali stuffy these days...my dear frens do drink more water...

workin on a poem...will be up soon enough...! =)

jus finished wif my log book so here to blog...

had an adventurous ride wif dasao todae...lols...was goin to make a delivery to ACS independent sch...den i gotta help dasao wif directions to the sch...so i had a street directory in my hands and dasao on the wheels...so damn funny...due to my 'slowness' we actually missed 2 exits out from the highway...or it might b bcos of dasao fast drivin...lols...

so we kinda reached dere on time...but was given directions to the wrong staff room as apparently, they had a NEW staff room and an OLD one...so we were directed to the new one BUT the person waitin for us is at the OLD one...and it so happen tt the 2 places are so far apart...!

thus we were like travelin from one place to another....wif all the pots of plants...>.<

the most impt thing i learnt todae was to handle wif human beings...rangin from teachers, troublesome ppl, kids and occupied office ladies...

guess PR isnt reali an easy task...but tts the way of life i guess...gotta deal wif it...

YAWNs...ZZzzz

bac from work...so its true that we will learn new things everyday if u keep a real keen sense of hearin and eyesight...

hav been reali involvin myself wif the plants and herbs todae since mornin...been harvestin and doin transplantin..very interestin stuff...was reali glad that there were so much hands on work to do around...at least it will helps in understandin of the plants...

it reali take some skill to help beautify plants...lols...will need time to learn how to do it better...well ..they are the beauticians for plants...they are the pros...

another great day...gotta work hard for my DIY hot composition project...hope at the end of the month, it will hav some terrific results...

guess tts it...gotta go record my log book...~

had a great great day..!!!wat more can i ask for on my first day of work...it turns out to be a beautiful dream come true...

hahas...mayb abit exaggeratin...but still it was fabulous...

was dere early...and da sao the first person hu showed mi the ropes first...followed by ailing jie...she is such a joker...and den the spunky miaojun...and ahbeng...my senior who went bac there to work after he graduated...

brief description...dasao is freakin amiable person...she is so damn motherly...hahas...she made mi feel at home...and she can drive real good...woots...she kinda reminds mi of my mum...

ailing jie is damn joker...can u imagine an auntie who jokes like a teenager?!well..tts her...whahahas...but she is damn smart....dun let her auntie look fool u...got a son hu is jus as joker as her...hahahahs!!!

miaojun is a spunky 26 year old...(finally someone young)she was the first student to be attached to the place...she was fr np...and she has been dere since den...woots...very capable woman...definitely independent...can reali tok...even better den mi...hahahs...!!AND...she got a nice tattoo on her back....!

ahbeng...the quiet senior...lols...his name dun suit his personality...hahahs...i m more beng...he is smart...and helped mi cleared alot of doubts...

well..overall...they made mi felt very homely dere...reali lookin forward to the nxt few weeks...

first challenge will be comin soon...will hav to be the guide on thurs for a large grp of visitors...mus reali rmb everytin..and of cos the charisma mus be dere...!

when i got home....my heart sanked...cos 'kobe' greeted mi at the door...and i was like FUCK...!why is KOBE HeRE?

gess...but i return to normal when i saw its long tail...nope...tts not kobe...den my mum told mi that the neighbour's bro jus gave him 2 dogs and was askin us if we wan...my mum...of cos chose 'lucky'(apparently a very cliche name) cos HE LOOK SO MUCH LIKE KOBE EXCEPT FOR HIS LONG TAIL AND SHORTER EARS AND HIS GENTLE PERSONALITY....

so we had him till jus now...my sis went bac to ask some qn and we will decide again if we wan him...but trusts mi...he had captured most of our family heart...

another dog...he is a pure maltese...so much like kobe...geess...!so much memory...

so nostalgic...startin from nxt week it will be a new kind of experience for mi and many of my classmates....itp will be startin and each of us will be goin thru the workin life...guess we wun hav much time to meet up...much less to say 4 of our gang are goin overseas...def gona miss havin the gay, dickhead, stonefish and shushu ard...haiz...

on a happy note, i finally got my MAN UNIted home jersey...its damn nice...took a pic...but lazy to upload...will get to see mi wear it soon...lols...thanks to ben and kevin(gay and stonefish) for accompanyin mi from queensway to peninsula plaza for the jersey...

gotta go dota...doubt i hav much time to game aniway...cya guys..!!

MAN UNITED TO WIN FULHAM TONITE....!!!! 9 points clear!!! bless them...

wooo...my 19th bdae jus passed tgt wif the 2nd day of cny...wat a clash...lols...

had a nice gatherin again at roy hse this year...but i guess luck wasnt on our gang side as more losses den wins...but still look forward to sat...!lols...

noe its kinda late...but jus wish the rest of the 19th feb babies a nice nice bdae...!!lol

go slp le...piggy year...SLP IS IMpT...!!

oink oink....~

well..i guess this period of time wasnt tt hard to go thru..at least not wif rappelz..a mmorpg tt ks recommended to mi jus after my surgery....it has accompanied mi thru the days and i m kinda like a nolifer playin it...but still its fun...!

removin stitches on fri...its so hard for mi to tok loudly,smile,laugh and eat the past few dyas...but i guess the days are only to get better from now on...oops...i should hurry bac to the dota game..the rest are still waitn...

lookin forward to CNy...

hav fun shoppin ppl...!! =))

todae mark the first day of hell!!

i jus finsihed the surgery...and the 8 STITCHES are KILLING mi,...!!!!!!ARGH....

every second is hell...i m like hyper now bcos of the pain that throbs from my chin...and the front jaw...

can see the stitches..the anaesthetic made my chin swell like fuck...its DAMN PAin...its indescrible...i m havin prob tryin to calm down..jus wana pen it down...the doc says it will cont for duno how long...and i even need slpin pills to help mi slp...GESS....duno how to get past the nxt few days..

every little noise wil make mi feel irritated...guess pain causes much undesirable effect...

well...the surgery was like nothin...the dentist and his assitant was more shocked den mi....

i only winced in pain during the drillin and was even tryin to cmmunicate wif them despite the anaesthetic...they told mi the last guy who went thru cyst removal...went out trembling...but the bottom line is the pain is still great no matter ur threshold is...

guess i shuld go and mediate to bring down the pain...hope that the painkiller can starts to come into effect...

ARHGHHGak dfngaksfdgasDFGASDHGjasdfghas

aHhhhh....finally i m settled down in front of the com bloggin after a hectic mornin...todae's schedule was like wat i said ystd...i managed to do everytin in like 3hrs...lol...

woke up at the sound of my alarm ard 845...den after washin up and readin the news...i chionged down to the dentist...lols...told him bout the toothache and he FINALLY took an xray...

already told him the last time to take it...cos i felt that the pain was reali more serious den he thought...but he keep sayin take the medication first and stuff blah blah...so we took a look at the xray...and he told mi there might be a cyst under my gum affectin the root of my tooth...so he carried on and on...and explainin in layman term bout autospy and stuff...though i understood perfectly well...lols...

so he advised mi to hav a sugery asap to get rid of the cyst...oh well...he explained that all they need to do is to cut open my chin and remove the cyst by scrappin...woo...and he made it sound so simple..!hahas...bet all the docs in the world do the same thing...

cant believe my first surgery done on mi is actually gona be on my gums...thought that it might be like knees, ankles and all the other parts of the limbs...lols...guess life is unpredictable...

so i went home after tt and felt so motivated to do the maJOR MAKEOVER TO MY ROOM....thus i spent like 2hrs to clean, move,sweep,think, sneeze and many things...AHHAS...and now mY room lOOKS DIFFERENT...!hahs...

now can reali relax...n then heads to shoppin wif chan later in the afternn...go slack liao...

yoooohooo...todae marked the end of my exam period...!!

well...went to sakura at science center to hav a big big meal with the guys...!!!crapped alot and walked alot...hahahas...kinda lost our way...

one of the qn todae was...describe the 3 stages of child labour....welll..i din study tt part and most of the guys din..so we had a amusin discussion bout this after the paper...

kevin was like sayin...first stage...mother scream....2nd stage doctor scream...3rd stage baby scream...hahahas...and i tink its very tRUE...!!!though it wasnt the model ans...had a great laugh bout this...

aniwae..hope to spring clean my room tml...and i m already thinkin of a new layout...and will be goin shoppin wif chanz...hope to get some nice shirts for CNY...

BUT...gotta go bac to my dentist first thing in the mornin...zzzZ...the toothache is bac...reali hope to settle everytin before NXT WEeK....!!!

wish me luck...

DIYA SHULD HAV WON...but she din...too bad...

last paper is tml...but the holiday mood is already in the air for me...

jus hope that i will pass the sem unscathed...!!

gotta do a major makeover for my room..it has been in a terrible condition for quite some time...lotsa rubbish to clean...!!!

guess tts it for now...ANP HERE I COME...!(hope it sounded enthusiastic...)

signin off...!

i m so dead... -_-

i haven had any complain posts on the upcomin exams...tts bcos i haven even start worryin bout them till now!!!

and my first paper is like less than 24hours later....SHIT...

i need help..SOS...

yoo...here to write my review on 'Eldest' by Christopher Paolini

bet some of you guys hav already caught the show 'Eragon' and this book is the sequel to that show...and i had a hard time gettin the book as it was kinda new...published on 2005...credits to sherwyn for lendin it to mi...!

well...a brief history on the trilogy...

the first book 'Eragon' was written by the author when he was 15...and it was first published when he was in college...it took a long time for him to refine his plot and manuscript...and by sheer luck, he was able to publish his book...'eldest' was completed jus recently...2years ago...and the last of the trilogy is on its way to the shelves...its a much anticipated book for all the fantasy fans out dere...

honestly speakin...fantasy genre aint reali my type...except for major works such as LOTR...but this trilogy on the mythical dragon riders caught my attention when i saw the cover of the first book...a blue dragon named saphira...and the second book, a red dragon called thorn...

i stayed up late last nite to complete the book and it wasnt that hard as the endin of the book was grippin my nerves...din reali feel any fatigue despite readin into the wee hours...the endin was comparable to LOTR where a great battle between the different races commenced...(LOTR still remains as my fav though...)

the book started off by depicting eragon embarkin on a journey to the elves homeland to learn his trade as a rider...as elves' knowledge on magic is the greatest among the other races and they were the pioneers that intiated the bonds between dragons and riders...

the whole book is so interestin due to the many dilemma encountered by the different races and individuals that it makes you wana continue readin...insights to all this i suggest you guys to read the book...

for those hu is interested in readin the book, do not continue on readin this post...cos i will be revealin some of the twists in the story from here onwards...

one of the twists in the story which i personally love was that throughout the whole series, it was made clear that no riders survived after the invasion by galbotorix except for galbotorix himself wif shruikan his black dragon...eragon a newfound rider with saphira a blue female dragon...and brom whose dragon was murdered durin the years of the invasion...and he eventually died in the first book...thus there were no other riders other then this 2...but...dere was one elf rider who appeared in the 2nd book...and he, oromis, had a magnificient male golden dragon named Glaedr...and oromis was the one whom will tutor and guide eragon as a new rider passin down all the knowledge and skill needed to be a great rider...an interestin fact bout oromis was his nickname...'the crippled who is whole'...go figure this one yourself...

another twist was that the 2 eggs that galbotorix had, one hatched into saphira upon eragon's touch...another remained unhatched...and i personally thought tt it wuld only hatch in the third book...but to my surprise, it hatched into Thorn the red male dragon on the cover...i wuld not divulge who thorn's rider is and that is the twist of all twists in this book...thus, i shadnt reveal more...

and of course like any other fantasy authors, paolini also instilled certain situations in the book to depict stuff that are certainly happenin to us in the reality...such as a conversation between eragon and oromis after eragon's daily lesson...the whole argument was bout 3-4 pages long...so i will shorten to the best i can...

eragon presented himself to oromis, "master, it struck me last night that neither you nor the hundreds of elven scrolls i've read mentioned your religion. what do you elves believe in? "

"we believe that the world behaves according to certain inviolable rules and that, by persistent effort, we can discover those rules and use them to predict events when circumstances repeat."

eragon blinked and asked, "but what or who do you worship?

"nothin"

"you worship the concept of nothing?"

"no eragon. we do not worship at all..."

(after a whole page of describing how confused and bewildered eragon felt) he ask,

"where do you think the world came from then, if it wasnt created by the gods?"

oromis replied, "i would not necessary agree with you. but as that may, i canot prove that gods do not exist. nor can i prove that the world and everytin in it was not created by an entity or entities in the distant past. but i can tell you that in the millennia we elves hav studied nature, we hav never witnessed an instance where the rules that govern the world have been broken. that is, we have never seen a miracle. many events have defied our ability to explain, but we are convinced that we failed because we are still woefully ignorant bout the universe and not because a deity altered the workings of nature."

"a god wouldnt have to alter nature to accomplish his will" asserted eragon, "he could do it within the system that already exists....he could use magic to affect events..."

oromis smiled, "very true. but ask yourself this, eragon. if god ever exist, hav they been good custodians of Alagaesia? death, sickness,poverty,tyranny and countless other miseries stalk the land. if this is the handiwork of divine beings, then they are to be rebelled against and overthrown, not given obeisance, obedience and reverance."

"but the dwarves believes---"

"exactly! the dwarves believes. when it comes to certain matters, they rely upon faith rather than reason. they have even been known to ignore proven facts that contradict their dogma..."

and the whole conversation goes on makin such an impact on eragon that he went several days tinkin that his master had upturned whatever he had believed in since he was young.

though his master's advise to him was..."depend on yourself watever comes...that makes us more responsible to our actions and not blame it on some gods that we believed in..."

very interestin perspective of paolini to convey this message in his book...of cos i do not hundred percent agree...but still...worth bringin it up... =)

had a great time readin this book and i cant wait for the last volume of this inheritance trilogy...

signin off...~

humans are terrible creations...so much ugly sides hav been shown...

a body ever so charmin might jus be a shell for a wretched soul...be wary...it scares the hell out of me to know existence of such humans...

its been said humans are the only creatures that attack their own kind...i find that amusingly true yet deeply depressed at the same time...

this issue has seldom been brought up...greatly due to the fact that humans would not criticise themselves...they would rather bring attention to unimportant things...

for you guys out dere...you mus be wondering why am i speakin in context of a third party...

well...its bcos i hav been immersin myself with fantasy books...and humans have always been regarded as vile and definitely a race that tends to displace people's trust...

i will be postin much more regardin thoughts that i hav generated from readin christopher paolini sequel to 'eragon', entitled 'eldest'

a long time since i had a book review up on my blog...hahhas...guess it will be up in the near future...like a day..?

haas...

silent symphony

heart of a desolate
emptied by countless echoes...
philandering with music
to appease zillion wrong notes...

captivating composition once dere
now replaced with dull serenity...
languishing for long gone pieces
he can only yearn...

desires to strum the strings
hit the keys...
yet nothin were heard
nothin's left but silent symphony...

a long interval since i blogged...wanted to post a few days bac...but my lazy bones jus push tt idea aside in my head...lotsa things happened...and as usual...i m jus too lazy to typed it out...so ppl its another short post...jus zoom rite into the impt points...

celebrated shiyun bdae on sunday...went ard town to find a nice place to eat...and we ended up in MOF...lols...went to kbox after tt and had a serendipity with the lady at the counter...she is so CUTE...so we kinda sang our hearts out till bout 4...before CABbed to home sweet home...

i was still awake ard 5...i kinda foresee that i wun be able to wake up for sch...so i msged kevin...lols...so i woke up real late and i jus spent my monday afternn doin senseless stuff instead of studyin for met bio....>.<

tml will be metbio...and i aint prepared for it...and i m waitin for the dota game to start...i m such a sinner....i realised its been a long long time...seems like light years tt i hav come up wif a poem...i promise i will soon start excitin my brain juices to work out one...

anyway...for ppl cravin for interestin reads...one of my buddies lik a.k.a lyarn (as known on my tagboard) has started writin his very own novel series entitled WWJD episodes...u guys can click at the link 'lik' on the right side of the page to enjoy his works...i guarantee you tt u wun be disappointed...do post comments on his works as it willl be greatly appreciated by him...

well...tts all i guess...i gotta rush for my game...cya guys...~

jus finished bleach epi 109...had lotsa thoughts after watchin it...so decided to blog about it...

well..the bounto war jus ended...and this epi is kinda like a buff epi to bring the whole show into the right track for the nxt epi...drawings were definitely better tis epi n hope it continues on...

losta interestin sentences this epi...reali makes one ponder bout them....such as..

does history repeat or is it a line extendin forward...?

revolving fate...do we break out from the circle or resign ourselves to fate...?

if fate is a wheel, we are the cogs that drive it...

well...tag bout ur thoughts on these 3 sentences...!!

>>>cRueliTy bRIngs ouT comPASSIOn<<<

wooo...

jus got bac fr tzeyang's bdae party after my work...its a simple affair...beside the esplanade wif a cpuple of liquour....namely scotch and chivas....i jus got home...kinda marboh...lol

still feelin the effects from the alcohol feelin kinda heavy...

but i guess i can still take it since i can still type this entry...although i m tryin hard to correct any typo...

well...we kinda had a cool encounter wif a couple...lols..

they were givin us a good show...wahahas...the suntec colleagues wuld understan...

ohya...i forgot...this party was celebrated wif the rest of the suntec colleagues...damn fun...i guess cavan must hav went buang after he went off alone...

since he lived in clementi....no one were able to make sure he is home safe...jus hope god bless him....lols...tobey, elroy, cavan and bolin all tried to make tzeyang marboh on his 18th bdae...and i guess we succeeded...lols....he vomitted twice...~~

lols...once beside the river and once at the hawker centre beside DXo....tink we were the better drinker...

most culdnt drink much....

well...guess the water is hot now...jus wana go for my hot water bath...lols..

AND SLP...!!! tired..cya guys!!

BUANG....~

jus woke up...and gotta rush for work aGAIN soon...

last week of the holidays...have been chiongin work between suntec and MOF...recently more at MOF...last day of work todae for hols...gotta take a break and catch up on my assignments and sch work...

MOF...chan's cousin restaurant...japanese restaurant...Ministry of Food...jus behind secret recipe at Centerstage in Marina Sq...dessserts dere are reali good...

most ppl started sch....and as usual i always hav tt time lag when sch starts again...will be laggin in everytin...and the bad thing is tt exams are jus 3wks after the sch reopenin...wats botherin mi aint jus exams...lotsa activities too...Haiz...

well at least sumting good to report...i slepT for the longest time at home last night...wOOO...

been ages since i done tt.... =)

sHIt...i'm late...cya guys when sch reopens...!!!

enjoy the hols whilst it last..!!

wOooo...wat a countdown i had this year...it was spent wif my dearest frens...the TH gang...way better den the last one...(refer to last year's post...lols...)

well..this countdown is definitely full of alcohols and crap...hahas...

had dinner at Riverside Indonesian Restaurant...den moved from one side of clark quay to another where we had a couple of house pours at bungee bar...n Geees....there was this waitress who is damn chio...sharp features...killer look...>.<

too bad we din stay for long...took a cab down to dempsey road to elroy's workplace for wine...wine company...tts the name of the place...very desolated place...but nice ambience...opened 2 bottles of white wine...a couple of heineken, b-52, black label for countdown..n more heineken at shiyun's workplace down the road...Oosh...tts the name of her workplace...a freakin high end fine dining place...

we had the countdown at wine company...n i downed 4 shots of black label after the clock strikes 12....each representin my new year resolutions which i shall not disclose...lols

guess it was a fruitful trip dere for mi definitely...drank alot...tok alot...after which is to sher hse...play cards, drank sumore...

n eventually elroy doug n i cui-ed on the bed while the rest left in the mornin...we were down all the way till 4...n jus got home...hahas...

might get to drink again tonite...soccer tonite...still decidin whose hse to go...guess i shuld go get sum slp to make sure i will stay awake tonite...ciaos...

HAPPY NEW YEAR....!! =))

ok...the first wk of hols is hell lotsa fun...despite the health situation...but hu cares...fun can cure everyting..!!

Hmm...where do i start...

ADD was way cool...chris is an absolutely crazy emcee...real humorous and he reminds mi of gurmit...wahhas...had fun wif the seniors after tt in kbox and i went home in the mornin cos got a suntec soccer trng in boon keng...

and the rain is pourin n pourin but we still went on wif the soccer scrimmage...had fun...but felt sick...cos of the stupid weather...>.<

vintage at attica was next...and it is still raining...kinda dampened our mood...and as usual the r&b floor is damn crowded and the underaged guys reali deserve to get beaten up man...

a SHOUT OUT to all male first timers in the club...

PLEASE DO NOT COME ONTO THE DANCE FLOOR IF U JUS WANA OGLE AT GIRLS...PLEASE GET UR ASSES OUT SO PEOPLE CAN DANCE...!!!

was so damn fcked up wif those ppl tt we went down to the trance area where not a single bunch of ppl is utilisin the floor...so we had a couple of drink n i did a solo...at least i managed to get some ppl to dance dere after tt...

oh..n we saw paul...if u r wonderin wich paul...its twohill...wahahas...he sucKs...

prata and a trip home for stuff...tired n sick...

matt hse was nxt the moment i woke up...and dee's chalet came along...

night in the museum was a FREAkiN Nice show...we laughed till we squirmed...WAHAHS...

kinda lazy to elaborate...go watch it for urself...!!

SHER hse was nxt...we dranked and ate like crazy...we had vodka...Alizee cognac...sparklin for start...lols...RICHARd the beST drinker of the night...!!despite the fact he puked Like shit in the toilet in the early mornin...whahahs

these the pics...bUaNG...~


n i m home now...n leavin soon for suntec soccer...lols...the sun is out...tts great news...

well to sum it up..i haven spend 24hrs at home altogether since mondae? i guess...

well...an early meRRy christmas to all u guys out dere...n happy new year..! =))

LOST....

2nd in the intercons...

doesnt sound so bad eh...?

but it still is a prick in the heart....

y....?

team spirit wasnt dere for the WHOLE team...for those hu came n for those didnt...

disappointed...?of cos...since i captained the team to 2nd...when the expectations was to retain the title...

but still...lost to a worthy opponent...5points...

guess we will try again the nxt year....never to give up...

GREAT job to all the CLS INTERCONS PLAYERS n OF COS OUR BELOVED SENIORS hu CAME DOWN No MAtter What happens...THANK YOU GUYS...!

without u guys....we wuldnt have gotten this far...

in a couple of months...u guys will be leavin us...i wuld like to dedicate this post to all of u guys out dere...namely...

Tzehao
Qinzhen
Tat Siong
Benjamin
ANdrew
Shuting
YenWei
JAsmine
Xueting
JunXiang
Weijian
Marlon
Nasir
.
.
.
.
.

well...its a long long list...for those whose names arent mentioned....thank you guys too...will miss ya guys!

intercons bball fINALs here we come...!!!

we proceeded to the finals after todae's match VS MM...tough fight...as usual, gary dazzlin on the court helpin MM for a spot in the finals...but we prevailed...once again....reali hope to get it one more time n get a double...hopefully a treble to end my sch life in sp... =)

sadly, capt ball team crashed out to SMA...was played concurrently wif my match so culdnt watch...heard that lotsa biased calls and other stuff caused the defeat...thus, with soccer team not bein able to get into the semis...the shield kinda no hope liaos... =(

>>>hope glitterin in the midst of troubles<<<

I can't do much more....

Seems like its redundant
time can't be reversed
instinctively, it just flows out of my heart
laid down a promise
longed to be fufilled

Carelessly slipped through my fingers
all is lost
recklessly hoping
efforts are futile...

bloggin in response to likky's tag...hahhas...I M A SURVIVOR~~!!!

=))

>>>tELL mE ITs nOt rEAL...<<<

courtesy to JAsmine n Shuting for these pics after the spsu game...memorable game...tEAM cLs...~

i almost wanted to start this post wif the same line as my last post...wif some slight changes though...ahhas

its late...just got to andy hse...went for a movie wif the TH guys at cine after i went home fr the SPSU match...SHagged...slpin real soon...

whole day started wif mi troubling over my event n the SPSU match...in the end the event went smoothly...n we won the match...so i guess...All well that enDs weLL...

so now 3 down, MIT, CADC & SPSU...left BE to decide if we get top of the grp...guess we played overall ok for the last 3 matches...todae's match was the best performance esp def...well...considerin we only hav 7 players...still duno how to gauge my own performance...hopefully its ok...since u cant judge it on ur own...jus hope that i will be able to lead the team to the top one more timne this year regardless of the obstacles in the way...oso gd luck to capt ball team and soccer team....

reali had a strg feelin that we might get to keep the shield after all...=)

jiayou le...

>>>sTIll nEEd tHe tOUch oF tHe aNGEl...<<<

its late...n i jus got home from movie wif the tauhuay guys...

step up is a cool show...the usual love story between 2 dance partners hu happened to get a chance to come tgt and came up wif a routine mixing hip hop and contemporary...

got all hyped up after the show though its late...and the unluckiest thing happened to elroy...shadnt say too much...but i m prayin for elroy to submit his assignments and floorplans on time and oso death shall fall on the one hu took his bag...

well...the rest of the guys are all FREE...they r back to the old days...stayin out n partyin... >.< kinda weird for mi...hard to stay focus at work too...since they are all enjoyin and stuff...AHhhhhhh....n i still hav a few more torturous wks b4 my hols...

troubles seem to snowball...i reali hope to pass these few weeks smoothly...bless my events...bless my life...

>>>saTuRaTIon PoiNt...<<<

felt the pain in the heart...
felt the strain in the nerve...
felt the slag in the brain...
felt the pieces of yesterday recoiling...

will it ever ends...?

chose to walk away...
chose to be undermined...
chose to disappear...
chose to forsake...

but is it a wrong choice...?

>>>someTImes u jUs hAv to waLk away...<<<

well..here to kill some time...sch startin again...this wk zooMEd past like nobody's business...haiz...din reali went out to chill...bcos of the rain n stuff...well at least was able to go town wif gary n zhixiang after the staff n student games...

post some videos of bball...gotta tok bout myfav player of all times, kobe bryant...so much had been said bout him being a selfish player, not a team player...but still...he had won many fans' heart around the globe...look at this video n u wil noe y...



another video below which shows the best NBA dunks and alley oops of all times...look at drexler's glidin dunks and lotsa freakin cool ones...though i dun reali agree that the top 2 alley oops shuld be THAT 2...judge by urself ba!!

the dbt 2b03 GErs

gays pointing
crediTs to jiaYI
'nianG...'
CLASS PIC....we ROx...
BLUrred...
uPskiRT...?cant see anytin...
candid...thats goldie in the screen
at marina...
posTER BOYs....hehes
gangbanged...
dBT 2Bo3 boys...
rare pic of kevin act cute...lols
SCREWED....
wAts so funny?think they tokin bout...hehes
my lovES....fav pic....
nostril kinGS....
ben jus loved those directions...hehes...

WOOOOOooooooooo....had fun ystd n todae...lols..

went to newater wif the class for a tour den went to hav steamboat for ptn...dr cui aka benzene ring went too...reali reali had lotsa fun...took lots of pics too...

went to jiayi hse after that...to add extra happiness to the day, chelsea crashed out under spurs feet...!! tt meant mAN u are on top wif 3 points apart..hehes...

kinda lazy to blog...guess will jus let the photos do the talkin...!

okok...here to update...!

i m gona be complainin this whole post...so ppl...bear wiF iT...~

firstly...i think God is reali tryin to prevent CLS bball team from playin ball...it freakin rain on the 2 occasions that we are playin...one a friendly and another is todae...>.< so turn off...well...i played ball in sch aniwae...realy wana win it again tis year...might hav a greater sense saftisfaction tis year since all of the teams are strong...

next my events are kinda like pushin n pushin bac...and i m reali fed up wif tt...sch system sucks...aniwae...i m suppose to hav my league last sem...BUT mr ho pushed it away to this sem...reali havin a hard time...

AND todae's metbio is A TOTAL KILLER...IT IS REALI DAMN HARD....sians...dun wana elaborate more...shAggEd...

guess jiayi's nick sums up everytin...'HARD WORK DONT PAY OFF T_T'

>>>unfaiR bUT bEAR wiF iT...<<<

Real MAn United FAns will truly understan the animosity and rivalry between the 2 world best football club of all times...the rivalry between man u and arsenal overruled everytin...!!

look at the video and u will noe...notice at how they mangleD Van nisTerooy after his penalty miss....look at how g. neville shook and stared at p.veira before the start of the match...it says it all...unfortunately, thats the ugly side of football...



to promote the goodness of the beautiful game...here's the video that make us forget bout the ugly side of football...i deemed this match as the best MaN uniTed victory in EPL...

giggsy owNEd at HIghbury...ronaldo showed his goal scorin prowess...look at the last play that resulted in a defty chip from o'shea....thats the definition of a beautiful game...real fooball fans will agree wif me...

MAN UNITED RULEZ....!

uGH...

Lab Management & Biosafety suCks...havin the test tml...n i duno wats the format of the test...reali sucks...

hav no idea wat it is tryin to teach...very mind boggling in a very bad way...no mood to study at all...>.<

shall post some pics...




DBT boyZ...!
11a toilet damn nice...
gaYlorDs...
captain 13 in the real world??!!
matt hard at work....
sMileZ....
model of an uterus....lik not included...wahahas
candid...!

gLory gLory mAN uNITed...!!!

2-0 victory for the red devils...a well earned victory indeed against liverpool...an old age rivalry never fail to impress...credits to paul scholes and a stunnin strike from rio ferdinand to wrap up the game at old trafford...as a loyal fan of the devils...i can proudly says that we are currently on top form and everytin is comin into what might lead to another successful season...might still be early to conclude...but still i m confident that manUnITed gona keep tis up...~

the only turn off point of the nite was M.schumacher din get to retire in glory by winnin his 8th world title...gEEs...wat a race it was in brazil...he was doin well till in th 3rd lap his tire got cut by fischella renault...wTF...and he has to drop for the pit...causin him to be back out last...aniwae...he caught up till 4th and that wasnt enough to get him the title...(alonso has to crash out...which unfortunately din happen...>.<)

was watchin 'so u tink u can dance'...and i was wonderin to myself y din't i catch it last season...Gees...it was fabulous...~

hip-hop and ballroom dancin was a blast...~

contemporary wasnt my cup of tea but still reali admire them for their body control...i love sparks' choreograph to biTS...!!tried some of the moves...man...felt good to reali work those limbs...so long since i reali get down to dancin...the pops and slides...

benjy is definitely my fav rite now...totally stunned when he did the mind-blowin swing routine wif his cousin last epi...swing was freakin cool...hope i can learn it in the future...ballroom dancin is smt wich i love to learn but not havin the time and chance for it...kinda regretted not goin for a salsa class which sher asked mi to go...booo...guess the main thing missin is still the partner...

>>>i like it lidaT...<<

cool...its real late le...n i hav the first test(A & P) of the sem tml...yeT... i jus had the urge to blog... whEEee....>.<

find myself rather queer these days...like havin split personality...serious one minute and goin crazy the nxt...hope its more of a gd sign den bad...?lolS...intercons is comin real soon...pressure kinda pilin up...n i dun even noe y....might be because of the long absence of competitive bball matches in my life...

life's been great...?i reckon so...still... it wuld hav been better if somethings were more within reach and certain incidents didnt happened...but life's lidat...never smooth-sailing...was recollectin alot of memories when i was wif the guys jus now...chanz is hooked up again...dee as stable as a rock...lik as single as himself...matt still learnin the ropes...mi as perplexed as ever?

might be an understatement....blame it on my humongous mind...cant seems to stop thinkin bout stuff that are irrelevant....

Aniwae...a BIG BIG shoutout to all CLS intercons participants...!!! do work hard n i believe the SHIELD will be ouRS once aGAin....for anOTHER FREAKIN YEAR...!!! JIAYOU....~

>>>pinGGin tHE pinGs...<<<

The RIght Impression

a seedling flourishes with nutrients & love
absence of such, it shrivels
with unfathomable impact, its crushed
feeble as it is, alas...

but do not underestimate
its ablilty to regenerate
multiplyin its way
out of the troubled bay...

beholder sees and never thinks
the prowess beneath this seedling
impressions are surreal
so do not be beguile...

chanGEd nEw sKin...deCIded to Choose smt more bright...lols...

aniwae...jus received news that my sports league proposal was bounCEd back...!!!daMN it...i still duno wats the prob...goTTa go down to club to check it out....zZzzZ...nothin much to say...hope ya guys like the skin...drop a tag to comment ba...wuld reali wana noe ur vIews..hehehs..

Tata~

hahas...inconsistency in my updates...i'm back again...!

interestin day i had...todae's lessons seemed like a breeZe...might be because i m listenin to wat the lecturers are sayin n tryin to understan them...mayb except for G.poi class...cos i was explorin the more artistic side of mi...hahahs...

jus done some tutorials...YES...even i cant believed i did them...hahahs...guess an angel touched mi when i woke up tis mornin...that explains this phenomenon..=P

i came up wif an analogy that kinda depicts something that happened to mi...(doubt most of u guys understan wat it means...jus wana write it down so i can refer bac to tis again nxt time...hehes...)

its something that i had been tryin to keep in a cup for quite some time...but it aint easy...i even used a lid for that...!time passed...and it seems to be workin...

i tot i had it hidden away...yet...iTs baCk...!!its tryin to force its way outta that cup...it is overflowin...and the cup is temptin mi to pour out all of its content once again...its hopin to be emptied...

its still in the cup...but if i ever spill it again...i duno if it is gona worth the trouble...

>>>m|ngling wItH thE ouTcASTs...<<<

woW...i kinda forGOt i got a blog...hahas...till sumbody reminded mi to update jus recently...finally here to write a new post...~

Ic jus ended...debrief on 15th...hope nothin goin wrong...frisbee runnin...not tt smooth i guess...still prayin hard...sports league comin up real soon...still in preparations...loads of deadlines...hopin to clear all of them...inter-cons comin too...suddenly had so much pressure in ppl's wish for us to win it again...but...sumone whom i tot i could depend on actually let mi, or rather us down...so disappointed...but nvm...i can't make anyone defy their own wish...

guess tt prob sums up everytin that i hadnt updated in awhile...though there are still many problems spiralling in my mind...thats jus bout wat i can post...

deep down, i guess i still cant get accustomed to that kinda stuff...i hoped i can be stronger...n reali face up to it...but nothin seem to be goin rite...aRRRRRGggggggghh...

aniwae...jasmine. shuting, weijian n TQZ says i m goin downslope...!!!gEss...guess its all a cause and effect kinda theory...nvm...hope i can bounce Back real soon...they will be the judges...waahahas...

at least sumting to be happy bout...gettin a new phone...! =)

>>>pAin iS a KinD of HappIness tOo...<<<

proCastiNation...pLayin My dAYs out...prOvOKin mY limITs...pissED witH sUmthings...pRAyin foR u...pains of the battered heart...pArtLy mY fAulT...pRejudiced judgements...pRedicTAble outCOmes...pRotecTin mY ReSolve...pUlverISing the uRge to GO at it aGain...puRifYin mY soUl...pInnin nEw hOpes...PresErvin tHe memORies oF yOU...peNAlised myseLF...pEnned down my PraYers...

another raNdom enTry...passin time like a perturbed person...

>>>poWerin My pAth tO pUrsuE a PhantASm...<<<

its nothin special
just an average girl's journal
a girl who has braved it all
and touched many people with her cause...

kind, sporty, independent and clever
these are words to describe her
wear a smile that could just melt a statue's heart
yet, all was gone when the sickness hit her hard...

she would fall when she walks
she would stutter when she talks
when she sees, her vision is blur
she began to fade, like a flower that has lost its color...

she lost the boy that she liked
in the midst of a dimmed light
yet she told herself, "i still have my family
and the love given by them is in infinity..."

her father turned depression into optimism
her mother made life pleasant
her siblings were always there for her when she needs them
without them, her afflicted life would be bland...

people start to stare
the glances towards her were hurting and sad
she never complain
though people see her as a lame

she felt sorry to everyone around
never able to do something for them that would count
she felt useless
and hope for the worst

when she couldn't talk
writing was her only channel
she never did stop
even when her fingers began to rebel...

she reaped her courage by writing her diary
reminding herself the purpose of her existance
she wished to help people out there to understand
the meaning of being alive...

writing wasn't her only source of courage
there was a boy whom she might hate
he was a cold and impolite smug
yet he changed to win her heart...

she was the key to his heart's lock
he was there to occlude people's mocks
there to share her woes
there to heal her wounds...

he was her legs when she couldn't walk
he was her hands when she couldn't hold
he was her mouth when she couldn't talk
he was her everything as her life starts to slow...

on 23rd of May, she passed on
to a place where she deemed
her tears could
flow till they dry...

>>>1 Litre of Tears..<<<

this poem took mi a long time to pen down...its adapted from a 11 epi Jap drama ' 1 Litre of Tears'...its based on a true story of a 15 year old girl, Kito Aya, who was diagnosed with a disease called Spinocerebellar Degeneration...an uncurable disease which affects the nerves and gradually stops all physical actions of the body...she eventualy died when she was 25 years of age...

she kept a diary of her experiences and it was puiblished as a book named '1 litre of tears'. this book had reached out to many people out there and has deeply touched them, urging them to understand the meaning of life...quoting from her, 'Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing.'

after watchin this drama, i decided to write a poem and dedicate it to Kito Aya, who battled with her disease till the very end of her life...never giving up...

today...we mourn the death of Steve Irwin...the best biologist, zoologist and renowned animal show's host...the greatest and the most famous in our time...

he passed away doing the what he does best...and under a fatal strike straight to his heart by a stingray...he had risked it all in his whole life to bring us the most natural and realistic side of animal's instincts...he has thus passed on the knowledge of the wild animals, the most exotic ones and also the most dangerous creatures ever to roam the planet...

a person whom shall be respected and remembered by us...for he has left us memories of him battling crocs, snakes and many other creatures...

he will always be remembered as the BEST CROCODILE HUNTER...

Real or Unreal

a glance from my eyes
i saw u lingerin by the aisle

my heart skipped twice
and i was rid of all the vice

yet, u never did mean
to be seen

at that moment
i knew i was beaten

a sense of anguish
engulfed me, like water n the fish

fragile as it seems
our friendship is like a dream

all was seen like a crystal
n it felt like a shot from a pistol

i thought it was worth something
but, u make it felt like a fling

real or unreal
u reveal...

hMmm...wat do u tink of this...?kinda complicated i felt...hahas...

oooPs...realised i m kinda late in updatin...its been days since the eXams ended...well...the absence was bcoz i've been busy releasin all the frustrations i had accumulated durin the exams period...lols...

seems like its gona be a short hols for mi...gotta go into overdrive again...bet tis hols is gona be diff fr the previous sems...i wun hav much time to go enJoy myself...other den settLin sTuff for IC...hope things run smoothly...! =)

short entry todae...hav been getttin numb recently...kinda becomin a 'dead' person...no feelins nor emotions...haahas...not tt eMO animore...might be a gd sign...

i hope...

>>>LinGerinG sOuL...<<<

yoohoo...once again...i'm here to complain bout the exams...hahas...hav been doin tt ever since i set up tis blog...

its 3am...n i've gotta nothin better to do...though i shuld be studyin...but heck ba...aim to complete my app. micro tml...5 more days to the first paper...feel kinda numb towards exams le...but dere will always be complaints...aniwae...i hope all of my JC frens pass their As wif flyin colours...esp ppl fr TauHuay...the most impt bunch of ppl in my life...and my e7 mates...hope u guys do well...

words to my dearest frens:

chanz---hope u reali excel...can see u workin hard...bet u can make it...u always do... =)

lik---nothin much to say to u since u r the brightest eh...vj dude...wahahas...aniwae...bless u wif A grades...

sher---enjoy ur life in ns man...soon it will be over and its time for ya to go aust again...take cAre...!

elroy---big guy...bless u wif all the inspiration in the world for all ur projects...may u become an established interior designer...!!

andy---LAODA...!dun feel dismay...we r always dere for u...work hard and i m sure u can make it...!!

kElvin(beng)---aiya u...duno wat to say...hahas...WORK hard...in both studies and ur job...

matt---study hard now...and we will play harder when the exams r over!!

kS---bet u r gona become a great artist...n i will be ur most loyal fan!!hahahs...

travis---huat arH...!!no problems in rp eh?hahas top student in class...gettin all the babes...hope u strive even better...!!

doug---yooo...swimmin craze...lifeguard...swimmer...sailor...wat more can u be...?hahas...balance study wif all ur stuff bro...gD luCK..!!

mEi---long time no see le...aniwae..hope u hav fantastic grades for ya As...and meet up after tt...!!

leen---twin sis...betcha in a lovey dovey mood...ahahs...jiayou for ur As...n oso gd luck in ur love life...!!

Shin---its been aeons since i last saw u...hope u doin fine...hahas...guess u hav no prob wif ya As...gD luck..!!

jL---SAj da jie...!!hahas...chiong for As and we can all go club like dere's no tml!!!hehes..

realised that i seem to be writin some farewell letter...wahahhas...dun get the wrong idea...i m NOT gona commit suicide after this post...hehes...a REQUEST to all...pls ask mi out to STUDY...!!!cant study at home...n i need a study partner...lols...well...dere r still many out dere tt i wish to write...but...my eyelids are so so heavy now...gotta catch some slp...niTes...! =)

had a cool day wich jus ended...had a rare encounter in the mornin that started the day goin....its one of those little things that spice up ur life...hahahs...shadnt tok more on tt...aniwae..went town n coincidentally watched Click wif CLS seniors xueting, marlon tzehao nasir and many and also xiaobai in the same theatre...hahas...

its 9th of Aug already...hAppY 41sT bIrtHdAy sinGApoRE...!!!nothin much to say...reali shag...goin sentosa tml!!!the Sun, the sand and the babes!

>>>lIfe's fuLl Of sUrprIseS...<<<

haiz....cant seem to slp b4 2 nowadays...guess its my body clock...nothin to do thus came here to blog...brain cells are still freakin active...>.<

well...jus finished 2 bks i borrowed fr the lib...both were damn nice...a long long time since i had the luck of borrowin 2 bks and both turned out to be fantastic read....titles are "Crippen : A Novel of Murder" and "Cell"

Cell din turn out to be as nice as Crippen but its very hookin nonetheless...its written by none other den Stephen King himself...fruitful plot and far fEtched storyline...whahas...kinda sci fict for tis book...the Cell here refers to handphones...not jail or anytin of that sort...BUT...the only turn off point is...THE BOOK GOT NO ENDIN...!!!n its not like it got a sequel..>.<...haiz...gotta go imagine the endin urself...boooo...

Crippen...the better bk of the 2...story revolves ard a docter wannabe who is kinda cold blooded...well...he actually enjoyed cuttin up any thing...fr a piece of chicken chop to a whole cow itself...hahas...pls dun get the wrong idea...the bk aint jus bout cuttin ppl...skillfully, the author, John Boyne(one of my fav)instilled a peculiar love story between all the gory scenes...n the twist in the story is remarkable...u NEVER get to guess hu's the murderer till the very end...i was totally glued to tis bk on sundae...jus cant take my eyes off it the whole day...hhaas...

tts the reviews of the 2 books...let me share a little fact bout novels...fiction never stray too far from love...be it parental's love, owner's love, lover's love and many other types of love...its smt that canot be measured and yet it has such immense persuasion power in novels...

eXams ARe comin...gd luck to all my frens...and we can all hav fun after tt...Interaction Camp, Ultimate Frisbee, Sports League and many more...!!! all waitin for mi...hahhas...gona be hard work...but its worth it...=))

>>>hEAd seeks...heaRt yeARns...sPirit cRAves... <<<

gees...jus finished watching bleach 91...and i tink i m obsEssed with it...doubt i ever mentioned here that i love bleach...hahas...

well...lazy to reali write an organised para...guess its another random entry...but tis time...its jus gona be about BLEAch...so its random BLEACH ENTRY for todae...=)

ichigo...nova...shikai...bankai...tenza zangetsu...renji...zabimaru...bounto...doll...haneikou...wabisuke...hollow...soul society...shinigami...soukyoku...aizen...ichimaru...soi fon...quincy...ishida...kotowari...zaraki...reiatsu...
Zanpakutou...
ryuujinjakka...
hitsugaya...

guess i shall stop...hahahs...well...for all bleach fans, brace yourself for the battle between bounto and shinigami in soul society in bleach 92...!! =)

>>>comBined wiTh a perSeCution cOmpleX n dEluSions oF gRandEur<<<

i reali had to post tis...my fren fr VJ had jus conducted an experiment about consuming alcohols...for those interested can click here to see his post dated 24th July, 2006. dere shows his recordings from the results of his experiment...i strongly urge u guys to read it...be it u r or u r not a drinker...=)

Nature's love, my love
By Alven

Beautiful yet shortlived, the sunset
Vast yet unpredictable, the sea
Alluring yet precarious, the night
Grand yet impassable, the mountains

Once there, and now nothin's left
Instead of accepting, I chose to flee
Desires within, never did die
Like a demon that can't be tame

Blossoming flowers, spring
Scorching sun, summer
Falling leaves, autumn
Frozen lands, winter

Blissful days deemed as dreams
Affections gently grew eager
Hurtful words left the heart broken
Memories like this are forever

inspired during the GEMs class...thus the birth of this poem...u gotta spot the structure of this poem yourself...seems to be broken all over...but there is indeed a structure...enjoy...! =)

i jus dUN gEt it...i keep ponderin and ponderin...

jus came bac fr my family dinner...celebrated my granny's bdae...and it wasnt a happy one...well...at least not for mi...got LOADS of comments on my hairdo...fr my aunts and granny...well...that wasnt so bad...at least i m kinda used to it...BUT it was all my younger cousins that reali pissed mi off...

tinkin bac of the past when i used to take such gd care of them..and now they are of adolescent stage...they totally have NO respect...i m not being childish here to flare my temper at their imaturity...its the way they treat people...certain things aint convenient for mi to say here as it is my aunt's family problems...but the way they deal with the issue is intolerable...they dint
consider bout other people's feelings when they say some things...

haiz...now...i felt like i cant find anyone in my HUGE family to relate to...it jus so happened that my sisters and i are the only ones that belong to the 17 to 21 age group...the rest of my cousins are either too old or too young...after just now...i kinda dread goin to my family gatherings again...

but i still love my family...despite the fact that i dun get to meet them regularly...but i still love them..after all...we hav the same blood runnin in our veins...

another issue that has been botherin mi...i come to realise tt its true that people judge a person by his or her appearance...wats wrong wif spiky and coloured hair...?y is it that you people must stereotype people wif such appearances to be gangsters or the so call 'ah bengs'?

i noe i m not one...and i noe of many other people hu sports such hairstyles and they aint one either...cant we go by the sayin, 'do not judge a book by its cover'...??i m so sick and tired of ppl sayin i m one...it jus the way i like my hair to be...keep the comments to urself and get over with it...

wHoa....seems like i m reali pissed after readin wat i have written...aniwae i feel much better already...and people...i AM reali NOT pessimistic...hahas...its just that...i dun blog about happy incidents...tHAts all...=)

>>>sO neaR, yEt so fAr...<<<

okok...here to get rid of the 'DUST'...its like only 1wk ago since i posted...aint tt long...>.<

were dere anytime when u deem urself as a fool?bet u hav that experience b4...hav been seein myself as a fool recently... in studies, club or friends...i seem to be like a fool...duno y...cant seem to accomplish any task...n it doesnt feel gd...

another reason might be because of my inability to come out with a poem...i've lost my inspiration...or perhaps...its just that i've got nothin' to base my poems on...no concept, no inspiration, no words...

tired...lotsa tests on their way...still haven spend any effort in tryin to understan biostats...osrm...applied micro....seems like i'm still a long way from gettin prepared for the exams...ARGh...

guess i gotta take a break fr the wkend outings, Tuesday club outings and all the movies...time to save $$... save time... and save MYSELf...!!!

>>>a ParT oF mE stiLL craves foR it...<<<

ur passion never forsaken you...as long as you still possess the resolute to do smt that you reali like, you will never be shunned...

this was smt that i learnt thru playin bball...reali enjoyed myself in this sport...its not jus a sport to mi...it meant much much more...its where i can find strength in myself, indulge myself, gain confidence and much much more...

it can distract mi from my other troubles...allow me to take a break from the harsh reality...

sweatin out in bball court playin the game gave mi so much joy...i've had so much memories playin basketball...i had spent so much effort in becomin a better player...its all worth it...felt very letdown to my sp teammates...since the day i decided to choose cls over sp bball, i knew i'm gona ponder over this decision over and over again...guess i saw it comin...nonetheless, its a decision that i had to make...

the many balls that went through the hoop, the many asissts that i dished out, the many blocks that i've made, the many fastbreaks that i've ran, the many steals that i've got, the many turnovers that i had made and the many other things i had done on the court shaped the current me....

>>>mIss tHose DayS...<<

ITALY...won...FRANCE...lost...zidane scored...materazzi scored...zidane headbutted materazzi...wat irony...a row that involved the 2 scorers...toni send the italians into a state of euphoria by sendin in the ball pass barthez...earnin their well-deserved 4th stars on their jersey...the italians reali played well...comin bac into the game after 1-0 down...their very first win in world cup's penalty shootouts...and it got them the most prized possession...

well...guess its another 4years before the guys can go crazy again bout the world cup...=)

fooD bAzAar... pOly 5o... mY riGht knEe... fOr CLS club.... fOr yOu i WiLL.... LeaVe mE aloNe.... pLs tReaT mE liKe a StRanGEr..... fAiLin biOstAtistIcs..... tOning & gYmmIn.... woRld cUp..... i LOve TauHuay..... i nEEd mOre tIme.... nEw LooK.... nEw pERspeCtive... mY paSsion.... sPend mOre tIme wiTh mY famiLy.... toYota VioS......... wIsh sIs suCcesS wIth hEr New Job..... EaRN mOre moNEy.... bE mOre COmmITted..... to hELL wiTh lOve.... bE mOre KnoWledGeble... DBT 2A03 GUys rOx.... gf bf ff...... gibberish........
surreal woRLd.... wIsh sHer a GreaT tiMe iN NS.... lIve LifE to tHE fULLest...

random random random......seems like the way i cHoose to LivE Life wiTH freeDOm...random random random


>>>LeaRNt...and uNderSTood...<<<

JusT mY LuCK...

its been a long long time since i caught such a nice show...might be a little far-fetched...but nothin's wrong with watchin a ridiculous show once in a blue moon...it has an excellent storyline and is filled with funny scenes that u jus cant get enough of...

is it true that u need luck to find the ger or boy of ur dreams...?the one that u yearn for day and nite...is luck an important factor...?the luck of doin the right thing at the right time...?the luck of meetin him or her in the most appropriate places...?is luck the same as fate...?i m not superstitious in nature...but if luck reali plays a huge part in crossin people's fate...how i wish i can hav more of it...

"Why do I need all the luck in the world? I've got you..." (Jake to Ashley)

cool line...like it very much...

>>>wiLlin tO saCriFice aLL of mY luck iN exChange foR yoU...<<<

dRunk...

reali drunk...guess i went beyond my limits last nite at sher hse...duno y i din stop myself...guess i just can't help it...

bac to the old days...where i party out till i die...never goin home...getttin my priorties mixed up...doin stupid stuff...gees...tot i had strayed off that life...but it jus came bac...the urge to be the bad old person...tot its gone...but its never gone...its actualli hidden...hidden for a long long time...deep down in mi...

m i a bad apple...??looks so delicious and juicy on the outside and yet rotten to core in the inside?mayb...mayb i m jus a rotten person...hav always been searchin...searchin myself...searchin for the bad bones, bad genes, bad thoughts and all the other bad stuff...can i ever change for the better....?

hu cARes...i m jus a roTTen appLe...and nobody eats a rotten apple...

>>>feLt the ChanGe...loVin iT...<<<

this few days hav been quite an uncomfortable and dreadful period...mainly becos i LOST my voice after the nonBUdget event...i canot express myself thru talkin...tt sucks...and as if tts not bad enuff...flu n slight fever starts to kick in as well...haiz...wat can be worse!?

well...tts all the bad stuff...at least i TRIED to enjoy myself durin tis period...went DXO...wasnt fantastic...but at least i let off some steam...by dancin...had only one shot of Bourbon...though i told myself not to drink becos of my terrible throat...still...i jus cant resist my fav drink in the club...another plus point is the staRT OF THE WORLD CUP!!!yay...i reali hope tis world cup can bring all my troubles far far away...as they always say...world cup tends to bring the guys' attention away from gals...its been 5days since the kickoff of the first match...and i can proudly say that i hav watched all the matches(well..i did doze off at times...hehes)

now for some serious issues...my buddy jus lost 2 of his family members in period of 1 week...can reali see he is quite affected by it...attended his grandpa's wake...had been reali hard on him tis past wk...goin over to the wake everyday to pray and all the other stuff revolvin around him...hope he can get over it soon...

gettin over certain things seem to be a hard task...and the culprit...memories...its something that would stay...and never be erase...the harder u try...the more difficult its gona get...guess its inevitable for everyone to go through this stage...its jus parts and parcels of life...

life is short...live it well and never regret...!

>>>iT juS keepS cominG...<<<

The story of a boy who tripped and fell in love....

It started when a girl said, " He must be able to make me laugh." That was her answer to the question, 'What qualities must your spouse possessed?' It was this out of its kind answer that made him noticed her.

Gradually, he found himself falling in love with her. He often asked himself what was it that made him go head over heels for her. Was it her charming eyes? Her graceful gestures? Her candid blur look? Or was it the way her lips curled when she pout?

He could not find the answer. Bet he will never know.

Words and poems played a huge part in expressing his feelings for her. Rain and cloud have everlasting love was her name. All clover heavens was what he felt towards her.

He really enjoyed the time spent with her. He never regretted doing all that he had done. For him, it was all worth it.

In his eyes, she was such a special girl. Only the worthy one can have her heart. He was just not the one for her.

He would be lying if he said he was not sad. The truth hurts. But he promised to move on and forget. It is a test for him and time will tell. As the saying goes, time heals all wounds.

He is happy as long as she has found her own happiness...

This entry is dedicated to you...hope this post doesnt seem sad...be assured that all is fine....hahas...i aint a stubborn guy who will try to do things against other ppl's will...i respect ur decision...and of coz...we r still frens no matter wat...hahas...tts all for now...! =)

YOohOo...hellos to anyone readin this...(if there is even any... =P)

aniwae...its been a long since i wrote a decent blog entry...its been poems, songs and all that stuff...even received a complain fr likky...(see the tag...) well...since i got into LOVE, SEX AND POLITICS IN FICTION, MUSIC AND POETRY as my GEMs module...u can't reali Blame it ON mi rite...? =P

seriously...i duno wat to blog about...too many things to write if i were to mention every single stuff...hmmm...guess i will adopt mY evil TWin's way of Bloggin...jus write down random lines...hehes...seems easier...!

i shall write down 10 thoughts that i had todae...(its in chronological order...)

1) WOW....!(it was reali a 'wow' thing)

2) ok...this question is tricky... A or C??

3) YAY...its over...one more to go tml...

4) GEM Lady!!! u r such a *****

5) pLs caLL mi Asap Dr CHIAM...!!

6) Thank you Dr chiam and fairuiz for settlin the GEM issue for mi...

7) ARgh....shuld i sms u...?

8) sO much thinGS tO seTtle...

9) Man....y did u hav to go offline so soon...?! =(

10) tired...ZZzZZzzz

tHAts all FOLks...!gottA get some slp...gd nite...~

>>>jUs cAn't geT enOuGh of yoU...<<<

If i let you go
by Westlife

day after day
time pass away
and I just can't get you off my mind
nobody knows I hide it inside
I keep on searching but i can't find
the courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
and once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah how will I know
if I let you go

night after night
I hear myself say
why can't this feeling just fade away
there's no one like you
you speak to my heart
it's such a shame we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
but sooner or later
I've gotta choose
and once again I'm thinkin' about
taking the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah how will I know
if I let you go

if I let you go, oh baby

oooh once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out
but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be holding you close to me (close to me)
will I ever see
you smiling back at me oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

but if I let you go
I will never know (oh baby)
will I ever see
you smiling back at me oh yeah
How will I know (how will i know)
if I let you go

old song...but a very nice one indeed...kinda expressin my situation?aniwae...so little time to do loads of stuff....gotta squeeze out time to relax myself...haiZ....got a feelin i will jus faint one fine day in sch...but still gotta keep myself upbeat!goGOgO...!!

>>>AlL cloVEr heaveNs...<<

loving someone isn't a complicated task
but you make it so hard that i always have doubts to ask

its been so long, but i am still stuck
hoping that i might still have that little bit of luck

i've got no directions
so i need some assurance...

don't be afraid to be blunt
cause i know i won't be stun

i do not know how long i can bear all this
i just pray all the troubles can be ceased

something is pulling me away
i wish my conviction won't sway

my world seems to be smaller now
and time is devouring me like a fowl

the stars in my night sky never seem to be shining
but i thought i saw one flickering

its beaming with hope
would i have the courage to reach for it...?

that remains a mystery...even to myself...

>>>on my mind...but in my heart...?<<<

i gotta blog tis shit man...its not often when u get locked in ur own hse n you can't go for sch... >.<

yeap...tts the situation i m in right now...n tt explains y i m at home bloggin about tis n not in sch doin my OSRM praC...!!!

woke up tinkin its a nice n beautiful day...but in no more den an hour...it changed...drastically...

well...couldnt find my keys jus when i m tinkin of gettin out of the hse...n no one is at home other den mi...n the funny thing is we got no extra set of keys cos i m already usin the extra set...n its missin nonetheless...so i m stuck at home...called everyone to check...n eventually i found out tt its wif my sis...n she is at work...isnt convenient for her to come bac home to pass mi the keys...so i m stuck at home bloggin...well...her bf gona pass the keys to mi later...still i m gona miss mrs tan's lessons...called her to explain...gotta go for a make up tml mornin...>.<

haiz...this is jus life....freak incidents(can tis be regarded as one...?) like tis one happens...well...guess i jus hav to see it from another optimistic point of view...maybe i might meet wif a fatal accident if i were to go sch as usual todae... =P we never noe...

gotta catch sum slp now...din slp much last nite...since i m at home might as well make gd use of it...=P

>>>LiFe iS so unPredictAble...juS liKe yoU...<<<

jus wana crap now...maybe the following post might make sense to some...or it might not...hu cares...its my blog...=P

18 years, 3 months had passed since the moment i arrived in this peculiar world...i have changed from a cute toddler to a grown man...was wondering to myself...what have i learnt in my life...??

i tried to recall and recollect...images and visions just ran through the back of my head...i got to say...i hav learnt all the knowledge the hard way...be it academic or just simple common sense in everyday life...i learnt it the hard way...nothing in the world is free...tts the one thing that i learnt in my life..

i can't say that i am a good guy...cause i know in some ways i am not...but i m not entirely bad as well...but tts for other people to decide...not me...just hope that ppl i encountered in my life can remember me as the cheerful guy who never seem to show a sad face...

sometimes in life...inevitably u will come to a crossroad ...

u might be walkin smoothly on a path...a path where u thought its going to lead you to a paradise...but at the end of it...its never like what u expected...or frequently...certain things might cause u to stray off the path u were originally walking on...and u ended up walking a path so strange to u...

its not often that i write such stuff...duno y i jus hav tt impulse to write sumting like tt todae...bet its all the stupid emotions...HAIZ...~

>>>you...wAT mOre cAn i aSk fROm yOu...<<

haven posted much for a long time...hav been very busy wif work at juice station and cls events...jus got bac fr ballin...suppose to be workin later...but janice told mi to change shift wif elroy knowin tt i jus had an event in sch ystd...and i willl be workin tml too...

well...tt means i can take a break for the day...but...wat if she will be dere...? arGH...so so confused now...lotsa stufff had happened the past few weeks...i aint sure of my directions now...haiz...doesnt wana tink so much...aniwae...here's my most recent work... aint tt good by any standards but still...it says out wat i wan to say... =))

Whether a sunny or rainy day,
he is always at the cafe drinking his La'tae...
Always at that comfortable cornor,
where he yearn for his love like a nerd...

Loving couples passed by him all day long,
distracting his thoughts about his Rachel Chong...
That's the girl whom he misses very much,
very very very much...

His wandering heart fled to the other side of the city,
where he wishes to see the face he loves like crazy...
And pour out all his thoughts to her,
hoping that would bring them even closer...

His life is black and white wihout her presence.
All he ever wanted was for her to be present,
by his side, sharing the woes and joy of life,
without any sorrow or lies...

WOOhooo....i M BACK fr m'SIA...but leavin for camp tml mornin.... >.<

aniwae...lotsa stuff happened at msia...cant reali rmb all...well....came bac injured...but it was a spectacular injury...shall not say more...wahahhas....i m humble... =P

din come bac in one piece as i promised...sorry bout tt...well...i reali did miss u when i was in msIa...hahas...n u still dun wana tell mi ur ans.... =P

better catch some slp now...doubt i will be slpin much durin the camp...well...tts all for now...tata~

>>>u Are mY FaVouriTe heLLo and mY hARdesT gooDbYe...<<<

hEYs...yea...i m still up this early in the mornin...jus got home after a long long day out...a very happy day though it wasnt very perfect...=P

aniwae...went to caTch bIg mOmmA hSe 2...reali hilarious...a comedy that displays the importance of havin a family...parental love is so so important to the children...(read Dr Spock's book on children care...hehes)...

meet up wif elroy, chanz n co in town after that...was surprised to see leen n mei...asked us if we wanted to go DXO...den i got christine n alyssa askin us to go Zouk...>.<

>>>fAilurE leaDs tO gReater hEigHt...<<<

sLeep...tts the ting on my mind since the start of the hols....

Had been so so SO buSy...wid FOC, Day Tour n bball...trials here n dere....meetin here n dere...geEs...realised i had spent so much time on cLs club tis hols...reali enJoyed it though...

juS came bac fROm the dinner wif my day tour GLs...had a good day for the first game trial for my GLs...we did good...!!spent a hell load of time playin frequency game at Kobayashi...lols...!!

i m reali tired...since i only had 2 hrs of slp for the day...came bac home ard 630am from one fullerton last nite...had fun at babyface...n still gotta rush to sch for the day tour game trial...SHAgGed...~

at least...i m still able to find time to go out on thurs...!!guess its my only chance...since i will be leavin for m'sia on 24th march n FOC will be straight up after tt...reali hope to hav smt good out of it...its been a long time since i last saw u....reali lookin forward to tHurs...! =)

>>>aBsenCe maKes tHe heArt fOnDer...<<<

wooohooo....bothersome exams r finalii oVER...dun wana tink bout my nxt sem...not a gd thing to ponder on...aniwae...got tis load of my shoulders now...guess its time for other stuff....bball...tis...and that...so tired now...guess i m off to slp...playin ball at nite...

And when the angels sing,
I wan u by my side
I dun care how long i've been waitin for you...
And when the angels breathe,
You're bac here in my life
Then..I noe its true that I love u...

vEry nice song...

>>>cAn't keep u ouT of mY heaD...<<<