its been awhile since i last posted...nothin much to write about...till now...

i'd jus finished watchin a movie..."in the land of women" starring andy brody, meg ryan and kristen stewart....

hMmm...wat can i say bout this film....

one of the best films i'd watched in recent times....

touched my heart...

generated a somewhat unexplainable feeling...

its a story about a L.A. man hu has jus fallen out of love and decided to move to his granny hse in Michigan to escape from the sorrows of love...AND...unknowingly gettin himself involved in 4 women's life....the story touched on many aspects of love...motherly love...family love...first love...and of cos true love...the plot is truely compelling...captivating...very very alluring...

a very down to earth plot...yet it eludes a whimsical feeling...endin was quite well done...and like i said before...sad endings are always a plus point for mi...but it aint totally depressing...

a definite mus watch...this film is not yet release in singapore...i tink...lols...well do catch it if u hav a chance! =)

Yearning the past

a lamp of the past
marking that time ran carelessly
loneliness striked without warning
yet silence beats being strangers

while appreciating the dawns and sunsets
ur silhouette disappeared evenly
darkness formed in the air then
i knew i'd lost my directions

love appears only at the other end of my dreams
it's incapable to survive in the reality

yearning the past...
holding you in my arms
your shy face eludes childishness
the desire to see your world
the desire to appear in your dream

yearning the past
hoping the story will continue
at least stop you from leaving
diverting time's attention
i will hold on to you tightly
is salvation too late now...?

>>>one more day till freedom...<<<

so much has happened since the last time i blogged...2 papers done...start of bpl...and many more...

gentech paper in a couple of hours more...cant reali say i prepared reali well...jus hope for the best...

2points after 3 games...yes...manutd is way down in the bpl table...so depressing...the new influx of players like nani n tevez werent able to produce statistical results despite havin played well....ARGGhH....

35 more games to go...its still early...some consolation to all the manutd fans...

>>>u had me feelin down all over again...<<<

BOTTOM's UP...
sMokey
matt is in love wif mi
spot the outcast
woooo...!
YuuuuuuMMMMM
earlybirds...
the 69 pit...!
wat the hell is chan tryin to grab....?
grp pic...
trio...

ystd was bbq nite for aLL tauhuayrians...!!organised by chan...he did a great job though he was in camp for most of the time...we managed to get almost a full attendance although some left early some came later...but still it is still a success!!!

met up with chan elroy matt n sl to shop for misc items before headin to ecp...got dere bout 5pm...set up and slacked wif poker cards...chan specially booked pit 69...i tink i dun hav to explain...aniwae...the crowd started comin around 6...n ks brought his boombox...tt mark the start of the bbq...lol

so den its cook eat beer eat eat eat eat beer beer beer beer...we had a great time solvin puzzles and playin games like'i know i know' that kinda games...lols...had a great laugh...!

after all the food is gone...its ALCOHOL...lols...doug brought peach vodka and irish whiskey...!the aim of the nite is to get chan real drunk...and i tink we did tt...!lols...he cui...everyone drank with him...so high...hahhahs...

can still taste the irish whiskey in my mouth...jus woke up..gotta wash up...!hahas..

ciaos...

i've jus finished deathly hallows...and i m bloggin bout it now...a review...! do not worry...i wun be revealin too much of the book's content lest any die hard fans is readin my blog...lols...!

on the whole...the book is not as captivating as chamber of secrets or order of phoenix (my fav...)but nevertheless, since its the last book of the series, it still has some hold on me when i was readin it...perhaps it is the desire to noe which characters will be dyin...lols..

sadly to say...none of the characters i predicted is dead...i find tt this book kinda lacks the usual innocence and humor like the previous titles...it is darker and much more on the thrillin side...but of cos...one impt ting which i m lookin out for when i m readin this book was the endin...becos of the fact that many gd books that i hav read always gav an unconvincin endin...read my previous book reviews...lols...i m reali glad to say that j.k. rowling had more or less done a tidy job endin this saga...lols...many wuld hav love the epilogue...

the part that reali got mi emotional was the death of dobby...sorry for spoilin...but i tink it was necessary to pen this down...mayb its because of the movie scene at the end of chamber of secrets movie...that dobby left a deep impression on mi...that scene was harry freein dobby as a house elf...and both of them had an unique bond since then...and in this last book...j.k. rowling kinda honoured this minor character wif a reali reali noble death...this was the only part that reali touched my heart...

in conclusion...the book is a great read...BUT could hav been better if impt characters were to die...makes it more earth shakin perharps?guess rowling didnt wana break all the young children's heart...

anihow...I BET ALL THAT HAS READ THE BOOK must HAV FELT A SENSE OF EMPTINESS AfTeR readin the last line, "All was well" =)

>>>a circle has no beginning...<<<

i m 19...most of my frens falls in the same age grp...bout 17 to 25? bout dere...

death seeems so far apart from us...we are suppose to be enjoyin our youth...well...this is the age to party n hav fun after all...

recently...alot of my relatives seeem to be havin health probs...and my maternal grandma is one of them...she is always so lively and she does not look like her age at all...yet...she has fallen ill recently....she looks more haggard and reali not herself...but she is still so young at heart when i visited her...i m reali scared...since my great grandparents passed away, i haven been able to come in touch wif emotional impacts caused by kins' death...(not as if i wan to...)

aniwae...the concept of death jus hav been buggin mi...

someone might leave this world...but he or she might have left many things behind...i dun mean jus the tangible things but oso intangible ones like memories...mayb i m still young...i reali cant picture the time when i m old and all of my frens around mi starts to leave this world one by one...or mayb i will be the first among them to go...

things come and go...jus the same for us humans...millions of babies were born...millions passed away everyday around the world...but the most impt thing is will u be remembered when u die...?

>>>get well soon granny...!<<<

gentech test is tml...!n i got an unexplainable drive to reali do well for the test...might be because of ben's words...

encountered smt a couple of days bac...not reali a situation u wana be in...its bout this particular person A whom i do not reali noe...but a fren of my fren...n i was tokin to my fren at the bustop at tt point in time before person A came n greeted him...

and then she started complainin to my fren about this person (whom i noe...n is my fren)...sayin she was staring at her n blahh blahh..she is a ger for goodsake n she behaved like a crazy hooligan...n she din even take note of my presence...

i jus feel like writin tis down not because she was verbally abusin my fren but her gestures...i was tinkin to myself hu on earth will marry this uncouth ger...?

oh well..i guess there MUST be someone out dere...i hope...

looks can reali be deceiving..!

>>>cuPid's CHokehold...<<<

oh well...was bored...n chanced upon this webbie...did a run...and they showed mi this...

You are the Hanged Man

Self-sacrifice, Sacrifice, Devotion, Bound.

With the Hanged man there is often a sense of fatalism, waiting for something to happen. Or a fear of
loss from a situation, rather than gain.

The Hanged Man is perhaps the most fascinating card in the deck. It reflects the story of Odin who offered himself as a sacrifice in order to gain knowledge. Hanging from the world tree, wounded by a spear, given no bread or mead, he hung for nine days. On the last day, he saw on the ground runes that had fallen from the tree, understood their meaning, and, coming down, scooped them up for his own. All knowledge is to be found in these runes.

The Hanged Man, in similar fashion, is a card about suspension, not life or death. It signifies selflessness, sacrifice and prophecy. You make yourself vulnerable and in doing so, gain illumination. You see the world differently, with almost mystical insights.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

ok...i m pissed...no...angry...

but its not ANGRY angry...another type of anger...

i m angry bout smt (more like someone...) but i do not noe bout the exact details...

i m askin myself...WHY...?!why do this to urself...mayb u din noe...but u could hav been much happier... >.<

mayb tts wat they call the vicious cycle...its karma...

when someone has the power to determine ur fate...u hope he or she choses the option that favors u...but its not always like in the fairytale...happily ever after...yada yada...bullshit...

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

it was a battlefield...
with angers waitin to be fused..
i was a soldier fightin...
yet i got hit with your everyting...

i brought the pain upon mi...
never cared bout my sad-ending story...
hopin that u would hav a different ending...
yet it din turn out the way i deemed...

nightmares of ur happiness haunted me...
my hopes were leaked...
yet i did not run...
stayed there waiting till the stars turn blunt...

the past was like an enigma...
i chose to leave a mark...
wish for u to be blessed...
still u r hurt nonetheless...

now u joined my league...
our horizons are bleaked...
ended up as a wounded soldier like myself...
strayin the wastelands searchin for gulf...

>>>never saw it comin...<<<

i M CONFUSEd...yea yea...i m always confUsed...

but are you...?
if u aint...then...
is it possible if...
gees...forget it...
still...
i cant...

yeap...that kinda sums it up...

>>>triggerin...<<<

oh well 2nd post for july...

the media has kinda successfully shifted the attention to the demolition of the national stadium, instead of the official 7% GST increment...the strength of the media...yada yada...but of cos...we got ben hu hav been yakkin n yakkin bout THE 2%...and all the complaints bout PRICES, PRICES and more PRICES....!

a couple more events other than the 2 mentioned above are happenin this july and one which i m particular interested in...and its gona happen on 7/7/07....

some of u might have already guessed it...its the LIFE EARTH concert..well..its a global event to increase earthlings' awareness of our little planet's global warmin isuses...

ppl like alex will tell mi that this is an event wich is full of rubbish and its jus another big chance for all the participating artistes and singers to reali rip the fans' for the tix sales...its not that i m disagreein wif him..but this issue bout global warmin is freakin real and ppl...its gona affect loads of other organisms and also the planet itself...

it might be one of the driving force that leads to human extinction...ehh...actually more of Earth's destruction...all the smoke, fumes.. from our power plants are killin our earth...anybody care?

mayb...but not sufficient to create an impact...and thus the idea of this global event to bring more ppl into this motion of savin the earth..its to prepare for our later generation...

i strongly believe that it wont happen in our generation... but imagine ur children, grandchildren facin energy crisis, land crisis, water crisis and all sorts of nature disasters...its all bcos of us...everyone is to be blame...

we can only slow down this process..its almost impossible to completely solve the global warmin problem...and i jus hope that this comin 7/7/07 will be of some use...

earthlings...hav a littl faith...it might jus save yourself from extinction...

WOOOOOOOO....!

if u were wonderin y i m up tis early morning...read the followin...

went to cut hair ystd...den matt hse to watch sg get thrashed by aust despite the fact they played well...den ton at matt hse...in wee hours mornin...we decided to go eat...so doug drove us to hougang to hav some breakfast ard 4plus...den HOME sweet HOMe...had 2 games of dota with the guys...and spent some time finalising MY WINDOW appearance which i m damn proud of now...!!!

i FINALLY GOT my VISTA FORMAt window...i spent the last few days tryin to get progs tt can change my current xp theme to the vista type...and finally got wat i wanted...woooo....

so damn satisfied...lols...but still i need my beauty slp...!!hehes..

ZZZZZZZzzzz

its been rainin all nite long...and my player has been playin emo songs back to bac to back...wasnt intentional..the songs jus keep playin...kinda make my mood now emo.... >.< i jus made up a poem using songs title from my wmp list...every line rep a title...comment on wat u guys think bout it...i wuld appreciate it...

if tomorrow never comes
stay away
i hope you dance
one slow dance
sway
to unchained melody...

i tried
waiting for you
all or nothing at all
depend on you
in the end
it don't matter...

here i am (jus when i thought i was over you)
this could be love
i lied my face off
don't phunk with my heart
my paper heart
left outside alone...

i can do better
when you're gone
i don't have to try
running away
the hardest thing
is making love out of nothin at all...

pieces of me
keep holding on
i want it that way
heaven knows
missing you
is all i have to give...

wouldn't it be nice
to have you bac
in my life...

>>>moody<<<

todae's topic....MAHJONG...

yea yea...the GAME that has been around for centuries...a game created for entertainment and wits...

some sees it as a mean to earn money, some sees it as a bane...others are still tryin to figure out how to play...

well...personally mj has been a huge part of my life....occupyin most of my sec sch days...those were the days....

ADDICTED...yeap...tts the word...to describe those days...note the THOSE days...

the game has evolved so much to me throughout the different stages of my life...

fr the 20 40cents to the now 1 2 bucks...

the touch of each unique tiles thrills even the smallest nerves hidden under your finger...yeap...no problems with not lookin at the tiles...we still noe wat it is...

the art of playin clever....the art of losing small...the art of guardin ur xia jiao...the art of CONNINg...

its like the back of our hands...

many more things to learn and experience...(like 13odds which i hav not get yet....)

an advice to the mj lovers...dun flare when u lose...be humble when u win!

AND know when to stop...or it will eat ur life out of u....!

the sky above portrays boundless possibilities...
yet the air around is killing me...

suffocating the pieces of misery...
i shall learn to break free...

light and shadows coexist,
i choose to stand in the shadows...

totally void of the light,
and survive the plight...

with despair, comes hope...
hanging by a moment...

just to make sure...
i get by to see the day...

>>>its a gamble...all or nothing at all...<<<

jus came bac fr marina sq...went to kbox...

and ks chanced upon ONLY HUMAN by K when surfin tru jap songs....

that is the theme song for the jap drama 1 litre of tears...duno whether u guys still rmb i posted a long long post bout the drama...

well...i went to youtube to look for the mtv of the song and i found smt even better...a tribute video for the drama...guess will make those hu haven watch the show understan wat i m writin in my post (click)

the song kinda had an impact on mi...perhaps bcos of the show...but its still a nice song nonetheless...

aniway...enjoy the video!!!



erika sawaguchi roCKs..!

wOOOOAhhh....

SHIOK...tonite at MOS was one of the best nite i ever had...totally roCKS...

din regret not goin to zouk... =))

main floor was mambo whole nite long and it was marvelous...we were totally spent...

DANCE,daNCe and DAnce...

first smoove, retro den mambo...

jumped around the rooms...had a couple of beer and chilled at a corner crisp walkin...woohoo...its real cool...

after that went to had dessert at coffee club...yea....mudpies and coffee sum the nite up...

and the caffeine still circulatin in my blood vessels...i can feel it...

good thing is can wake up late tml for fyp...bad thing is gotta hav 100% concentration for the 200readings tml...

>.<

>>>WHO CARES....~<<<

AH...!!!finalii got to noe the right word for 'trance stepin'..ITS CALL

CRISP WALKIN'

here is a video of it...oWNED...!!!!



will be learnin it after i get the hang of my glides and floats... =))

AHhhh...cant concentrate...bish ba boom...tests are killin mi...

a few more days to hols...no mood for hols too...diminished by FYP...imaginin havin to go bac to sch EVERYday...WOOO...yEA..!

>.<

>>>misconceptions...<<<