I can't do much more....

Seems like its redundant
time can't be reversed
instinctively, it just flows out of my heart
laid down a promise
longed to be fufilled

Carelessly slipped through my fingers
all is lost
recklessly hoping
efforts are futile...

bloggin in response to likky's tag...hahhas...I M A SURVIVOR~~!!!

=))

>>>tELL mE ITs nOt rEAL...<<<

courtesy to JAsmine n Shuting for these pics after the spsu game...memorable game...tEAM cLs...~

i almost wanted to start this post wif the same line as my last post...wif some slight changes though...ahhas

its late...just got to andy hse...went for a movie wif the TH guys at cine after i went home fr the SPSU match...SHagged...slpin real soon...

whole day started wif mi troubling over my event n the SPSU match...in the end the event went smoothly...n we won the match...so i guess...All well that enDs weLL...

so now 3 down, MIT, CADC & SPSU...left BE to decide if we get top of the grp...guess we played overall ok for the last 3 matches...todae's match was the best performance esp def...well...considerin we only hav 7 players...still duno how to gauge my own performance...hopefully its ok...since u cant judge it on ur own...jus hope that i will be able to lead the team to the top one more timne this year regardless of the obstacles in the way...oso gd luck to capt ball team and soccer team....

reali had a strg feelin that we might get to keep the shield after all...=)

jiayou le...

>>>sTIll nEEd tHe tOUch oF tHe aNGEl...<<<

its late...n i jus got home from movie wif the tauhuay guys...

step up is a cool show...the usual love story between 2 dance partners hu happened to get a chance to come tgt and came up wif a routine mixing hip hop and contemporary...

got all hyped up after the show though its late...and the unluckiest thing happened to elroy...shadnt say too much...but i m prayin for elroy to submit his assignments and floorplans on time and oso death shall fall on the one hu took his bag...

well...the rest of the guys are all FREE...they r back to the old days...stayin out n partyin... >.< kinda weird for mi...hard to stay focus at work too...since they are all enjoyin and stuff...AHhhhhhh....n i still hav a few more torturous wks b4 my hols...

troubles seem to snowball...i reali hope to pass these few weeks smoothly...bless my events...bless my life...

>>>saTuRaTIon PoiNt...<<<

felt the pain in the heart...
felt the strain in the nerve...
felt the slag in the brain...
felt the pieces of yesterday recoiling...

will it ever ends...?

chose to walk away...
chose to be undermined...
chose to disappear...
chose to forsake...

but is it a wrong choice...?

>>>someTImes u jUs hAv to waLk away...<<<

well..here to kill some time...sch startin again...this wk zooMEd past like nobody's business...haiz...din reali went out to chill...bcos of the rain n stuff...well at least was able to go town wif gary n zhixiang after the staff n student games...

post some videos of bball...gotta tok bout myfav player of all times, kobe bryant...so much had been said bout him being a selfish player, not a team player...but still...he had won many fans' heart around the globe...look at this video n u wil noe y...



another video below which shows the best NBA dunks and alley oops of all times...look at drexler's glidin dunks and lotsa freakin cool ones...though i dun reali agree that the top 2 alley oops shuld be THAT 2...judge by urself ba!!

the dbt 2b03 GErs

gays pointing
crediTs to jiaYI
'nianG...'
CLASS PIC....we ROx...
BLUrred...
uPskiRT...?cant see anytin...
candid...thats goldie in the screen
at marina...
posTER BOYs....hehes
gangbanged...
dBT 2Bo3 boys...
rare pic of kevin act cute...lols
SCREWED....
wAts so funny?think they tokin bout...hehes
my lovES....fav pic....
nostril kinGS....
ben jus loved those directions...hehes...

WOOOOOooooooooo....had fun ystd n todae...lols..

went to newater wif the class for a tour den went to hav steamboat for ptn...dr cui aka benzene ring went too...reali reali had lotsa fun...took lots of pics too...

went to jiayi hse after that...to add extra happiness to the day, chelsea crashed out under spurs feet...!! tt meant mAN u are on top wif 3 points apart..hehes...

kinda lazy to blog...guess will jus let the photos do the talkin...!

okok...here to update...!

i m gona be complainin this whole post...so ppl...bear wiF iT...~

firstly...i think God is reali tryin to prevent CLS bball team from playin ball...it freakin rain on the 2 occasions that we are playin...one a friendly and another is todae...>.< so turn off...well...i played ball in sch aniwae...realy wana win it again tis year...might hav a greater sense saftisfaction tis year since all of the teams are strong...

next my events are kinda like pushin n pushin bac...and i m reali fed up wif tt...sch system sucks...aniwae...i m suppose to hav my league last sem...BUT mr ho pushed it away to this sem...reali havin a hard time...

AND todae's metbio is A TOTAL KILLER...IT IS REALI DAMN HARD....sians...dun wana elaborate more...shAggEd...

guess jiayi's nick sums up everytin...'HARD WORK DONT PAY OFF T_T'

>>>unfaiR bUT bEAR wiF iT...<<<

Real MAn United FAns will truly understan the animosity and rivalry between the 2 world best football club of all times...the rivalry between man u and arsenal overruled everytin...!!

look at the video and u will noe...notice at how they mangleD Van nisTerooy after his penalty miss....look at how g. neville shook and stared at p.veira before the start of the match...it says it all...unfortunately, thats the ugly side of football...



to promote the goodness of the beautiful game...here's the video that make us forget bout the ugly side of football...i deemed this match as the best MaN uniTed victory in EPL...

giggsy owNEd at HIghbury...ronaldo showed his goal scorin prowess...look at the last play that resulted in a defty chip from o'shea....thats the definition of a beautiful game...real fooball fans will agree wif me...

MAN UNITED RULEZ....!

uGH...

Lab Management & Biosafety suCks...havin the test tml...n i duno wats the format of the test...reali sucks...

hav no idea wat it is tryin to teach...very mind boggling in a very bad way...no mood to study at all...>.<

shall post some pics...




DBT boyZ...!
11a toilet damn nice...
gaYlorDs...
captain 13 in the real world??!!
matt hard at work....
sMileZ....
model of an uterus....lik not included...wahahas
candid...!

gLory gLory mAN uNITed...!!!

2-0 victory for the red devils...a well earned victory indeed against liverpool...an old age rivalry never fail to impress...credits to paul scholes and a stunnin strike from rio ferdinand to wrap up the game at old trafford...as a loyal fan of the devils...i can proudly says that we are currently on top form and everytin is comin into what might lead to another successful season...might still be early to conclude...but still i m confident that manUnITed gona keep tis up...~

the only turn off point of the nite was M.schumacher din get to retire in glory by winnin his 8th world title...gEEs...wat a race it was in brazil...he was doin well till in th 3rd lap his tire got cut by fischella renault...wTF...and he has to drop for the pit...causin him to be back out last...aniwae...he caught up till 4th and that wasnt enough to get him the title...(alonso has to crash out...which unfortunately din happen...>.<)

was watchin 'so u tink u can dance'...and i was wonderin to myself y din't i catch it last season...Gees...it was fabulous...~

hip-hop and ballroom dancin was a blast...~

contemporary wasnt my cup of tea but still reali admire them for their body control...i love sparks' choreograph to biTS...!!tried some of the moves...man...felt good to reali work those limbs...so long since i reali get down to dancin...the pops and slides...

benjy is definitely my fav rite now...totally stunned when he did the mind-blowin swing routine wif his cousin last epi...swing was freakin cool...hope i can learn it in the future...ballroom dancin is smt wich i love to learn but not havin the time and chance for it...kinda regretted not goin for a salsa class which sher asked mi to go...booo...guess the main thing missin is still the partner...

>>>i like it lidaT...<<

cool...its real late le...n i hav the first test(A & P) of the sem tml...yeT... i jus had the urge to blog... whEEee....>.<

find myself rather queer these days...like havin split personality...serious one minute and goin crazy the nxt...hope its more of a gd sign den bad...?lolS...intercons is comin real soon...pressure kinda pilin up...n i dun even noe y....might be because of the long absence of competitive bball matches in my life...

life's been great...?i reckon so...still... it wuld hav been better if somethings were more within reach and certain incidents didnt happened...but life's lidat...never smooth-sailing...was recollectin alot of memories when i was wif the guys jus now...chanz is hooked up again...dee as stable as a rock...lik as single as himself...matt still learnin the ropes...mi as perplexed as ever?

might be an understatement....blame it on my humongous mind...cant seems to stop thinkin bout stuff that are irrelevant....

Aniwae...a BIG BIG shoutout to all CLS intercons participants...!!! do work hard n i believe the SHIELD will be ouRS once aGAin....for anOTHER FREAKIN YEAR...!!! JIAYOU....~

>>>pinGGin tHE pinGs...<<<

The RIght Impression

a seedling flourishes with nutrients & love
absence of such, it shrivels
with unfathomable impact, its crushed
feeble as it is, alas...

but do not underestimate
its ablilty to regenerate
multiplyin its way
out of the troubled bay...

beholder sees and never thinks
the prowess beneath this seedling
impressions are surreal
so do not be beguile...

chanGEd nEw sKin...deCIded to Choose smt more bright...lols...

aniwae...jus received news that my sports league proposal was bounCEd back...!!!daMN it...i still duno wats the prob...goTTa go down to club to check it out....zZzzZ...nothin much to say...hope ya guys like the skin...drop a tag to comment ba...wuld reali wana noe ur vIews..hehehs..

Tata~

hahas...inconsistency in my updates...i'm back again...!

interestin day i had...todae's lessons seemed like a breeZe...might be because i m listenin to wat the lecturers are sayin n tryin to understan them...mayb except for G.poi class...cos i was explorin the more artistic side of mi...hahahs...

jus done some tutorials...YES...even i cant believed i did them...hahahs...guess an angel touched mi when i woke up tis mornin...that explains this phenomenon..=P

i came up wif an analogy that kinda depicts something that happened to mi...(doubt most of u guys understan wat it means...jus wana write it down so i can refer bac to tis again nxt time...hehes...)

its something that i had been tryin to keep in a cup for quite some time...but it aint easy...i even used a lid for that...!time passed...and it seems to be workin...

i tot i had it hidden away...yet...iTs baCk...!!its tryin to force its way outta that cup...it is overflowin...and the cup is temptin mi to pour out all of its content once again...its hopin to be emptied...

its still in the cup...but if i ever spill it again...i duno if it is gona worth the trouble...

>>>m|ngling wItH thE ouTcASTs...<<<

woW...i kinda forGOt i got a blog...hahas...till sumbody reminded mi to update jus recently...finally here to write a new post...~

Ic jus ended...debrief on 15th...hope nothin goin wrong...frisbee runnin...not tt smooth i guess...still prayin hard...sports league comin up real soon...still in preparations...loads of deadlines...hopin to clear all of them...inter-cons comin too...suddenly had so much pressure in ppl's wish for us to win it again...but...sumone whom i tot i could depend on actually let mi, or rather us down...so disappointed...but nvm...i can't make anyone defy their own wish...

guess tt prob sums up everytin that i hadnt updated in awhile...though there are still many problems spiralling in my mind...thats jus bout wat i can post...

deep down, i guess i still cant get accustomed to that kinda stuff...i hoped i can be stronger...n reali face up to it...but nothin seem to be goin rite...aRRRRRGggggggghh...

aniwae...jasmine. shuting, weijian n TQZ says i m goin downslope...!!!gEss...guess its all a cause and effect kinda theory...nvm...hope i can bounce Back real soon...they will be the judges...waahahas...

at least sumting to be happy bout...gettin a new phone...! =)

>>>pAin iS a KinD of HappIness tOo...<<<

proCastiNation...pLayin My dAYs out...prOvOKin mY limITs...pissED witH sUmthings...pRAyin foR u...pains of the battered heart...pArtLy mY fAulT...pRejudiced judgements...pRedicTAble outCOmes...pRotecTin mY ReSolve...pUlverISing the uRge to GO at it aGain...puRifYin mY soUl...pInnin nEw hOpes...PresErvin tHe memORies oF yOU...peNAlised myseLF...pEnned down my PraYers...

another raNdom enTry...passin time like a perturbed person...

>>>poWerin My pAth tO pUrsuE a PhantASm...<<<

its nothin special
just an average girl's journal
a girl who has braved it all
and touched many people with her cause...

kind, sporty, independent and clever
these are words to describe her
wear a smile that could just melt a statue's heart
yet, all was gone when the sickness hit her hard...

she would fall when she walks
she would stutter when she talks
when she sees, her vision is blur
she began to fade, like a flower that has lost its color...

she lost the boy that she liked
in the midst of a dimmed light
yet she told herself, "i still have my family
and the love given by them is in infinity..."

her father turned depression into optimism
her mother made life pleasant
her siblings were always there for her when she needs them
without them, her afflicted life would be bland...

people start to stare
the glances towards her were hurting and sad
she never complain
though people see her as a lame

she felt sorry to everyone around
never able to do something for them that would count
she felt useless
and hope for the worst

when she couldn't talk
writing was her only channel
she never did stop
even when her fingers began to rebel...

she reaped her courage by writing her diary
reminding herself the purpose of her existance
she wished to help people out there to understand
the meaning of being alive...

writing wasn't her only source of courage
there was a boy whom she might hate
he was a cold and impolite smug
yet he changed to win her heart...

she was the key to his heart's lock
he was there to occlude people's mocks
there to share her woes
there to heal her wounds...

he was her legs when she couldn't walk
he was her hands when she couldn't hold
he was her mouth when she couldn't talk
he was her everything as her life starts to slow...

on 23rd of May, she passed on
to a place where she deemed
her tears could
flow till they dry...

>>>1 Litre of Tears..<<<

this poem took mi a long time to pen down...its adapted from a 11 epi Jap drama ' 1 Litre of Tears'...its based on a true story of a 15 year old girl, Kito Aya, who was diagnosed with a disease called Spinocerebellar Degeneration...an uncurable disease which affects the nerves and gradually stops all physical actions of the body...she eventualy died when she was 25 years of age...

she kept a diary of her experiences and it was puiblished as a book named '1 litre of tears'. this book had reached out to many people out there and has deeply touched them, urging them to understand the meaning of life...quoting from her, 'Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing.'

after watchin this drama, i decided to write a poem and dedicate it to Kito Aya, who battled with her disease till the very end of her life...never giving up...

today...we mourn the death of Steve Irwin...the best biologist, zoologist and renowned animal show's host...the greatest and the most famous in our time...

he passed away doing the what he does best...and under a fatal strike straight to his heart by a stingray...he had risked it all in his whole life to bring us the most natural and realistic side of animal's instincts...he has thus passed on the knowledge of the wild animals, the most exotic ones and also the most dangerous creatures ever to roam the planet...

a person whom shall be respected and remembered by us...for he has left us memories of him battling crocs, snakes and many other creatures...

he will always be remembered as the BEST CROCODILE HUNTER...